Incapable of Love?

Up late again…

Nothing new for a girl like me

It’s like

Insomnia is just a magnifying glass for

pain

I miss her…

I wonder if this feeling is just

the thrill of the chase

Fires light my way

when competition stirs me I feel

free to feel

I have him

in my clutches and I wonder if I should just

let go

maybe I’m not good enough

Maybe I just don’t feel things like

love

Maybe I live in

fantasies

Maybe love simply

escapes

me

I miss her

I think of her eyes while she talks

I think of his arms when he hugs

I think of her skin when

the night takes over

I remember his laugh when

the daylight breaks

I miss him

I miss his touch, his taste, his smell

and I wonder…

Is he the one?

Is she the one?

Or am I just enchanted with the

challenge?

Because when the challenge fades

and my exploits have conquered another soul

I am lost again

Drifting

Wandering

Waiting for the next conquest

Am I

broken?

Am I

undeserving?

Am I

incapable of love?

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